Happy Birthday, Honey

This poem is for someone special who is my first true love. He actually mean it when he said "I Love You". You are my stars in my black sky of a soul.You are my true love. And I am sure that soon or later we can be together. So, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, SAM. This Poem is officially for you...

You were my best friend,
I realized I felt more,
You didn't feel, 
My heart was tore.

It was a lie,
You did feel, 
A great amount, 
And it was real.

I must be insane,
I didn't think love did exist,
But I knew it was true,
When you made me promise to stop the scars on my wrists.

I broke it off, 
A stupid mistake, 
There was nothing left,
For me to take.

I asked for a second chance,
You hesitated,
I figured you thought,
I was over-rated.

But you gave it to me,
a smile I couldn't stop,
With lips as red,
As a strawberry crop.

Now I see you,
every few days,
You send me,
Into a craze.

Thank you for being the first to really love me.
I love you.

As my gift, i just can give you this picture below. Hope you like it as a surprise cause I have just know that you went out with your dad tonight out of Paris.

Bersama (tanpa)Mu

malam itu begitu sunyi, hanya terdengar bunyi ketikan keyboard laptopku yang bersentuhan dengan jemariku. di ujung sana terdengar suaranya, ya lelaki yang menjadi pujaanku selama setahun belakangan ini. terdengar merdu dan nyaman di hati ini. kita bercakap ria malam itu. hembusan nafasnya pun terdengar pula olehku,, hingga aku merasakan kehadirannya di sampingku. entah apa yang barusan terjadi, aku menghentikan video call dengannya, hatiku terpukul mendengar kalimat itu. aku marah, sedih, kesal, semua bercampur. ini tak adil!! 

kenapa Tuhan membiarkan ini? kenapa Tuhan mempertemukan kita bila nantinya kita tak bersama."cinta tak salinmg memiliki" pepatah yang begitu simple untuk diucapkan, namun sulit diterima kenyataannya. penantian itu sia-sia. satu tahun sudah kulalui hubungan jarak jauh ini denganmu, aku merasa yakin denganmu. namun mengapa saat aku mulai menyerahkan hatiku ini, ada saja hal yang terjadi.

Ibunya membenciku, Ibunya tak merestui hubungan kita ini. tak ada harapan, tak ada lagi mimpi. haruskah kita meyerah? benarkah tak ada lagi kesempatan untuk cinta tulus kita ini? mengapa dahulu kita dipertemukan? mengapa Tuhan membiarkan kita saling mencintai? andaikan kudapat memutar waktu kembali, aku hanya ingin memperbaiki ini. tuhan, berikan aku kesempatan untuk bersamanya.

bersama mu dalam setahun merupakan memori tak terlupakan seumur hidupku. aku bahkan tak yakin jika aku bisa hidup bersama tanpamu. andaikan ada satu saja kesempatan untuk kita bisa bersama, akan ku perbaiki semua ini. is there really no chance for us to be together? and why? why we love each other while we know that we will never be together??

- For you, my love

A Message To You

"You know this relationship is so hard to us. But You also know that we can make it happen. Just be patient and keep your heart to me. I promise you, I'll keep this heart and this love just for you. I love you, and you know that. This love will always be yours"

Using Henna